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HEY EVERYONE :)

I have a newww words of mah domain!

Please remember it, and please read and comment and enjoy reading..

I am no longer going to be posting in here,

so this is my last post aww :(

I have appreciated all the support and like to no that people have an interest in my life, as I also have an interest in yours :)

please enjoy my new blog,

it will soon have my music and pictures, as I love photography..

please enjoy,

and please comment :)

Lots of Love

Hayley!

I have decided to redo my blog, and its going to have a new url and everything, so i hope that everyone will follow! I am still going to be blogging here for a while untill i get the site exactly how i want it, I want it to be pretty groovy!

well we kicked our house mate out, unfortunatly lies kept happening and i had had enough...we all had had enough, so shell be out on friday

YAY

hello, this week has been a whirl of every emotion...

happy, sad, angry, happy.......

things are a little better in regards to the house mates, we had a good talk tonight and sorted through some issues so i feel a bit better then before, there were alot of things going through my mind, but I was able to express it and talk to her about it all, so things are a lot better now, but not one hundred percent.

things take time i guess...

drew and i have started our search for a rental to move into, we are wanting to live in something newer and nicer, hopefully we find something within our price range..

we have decided that we wont have house mates go on with us, but for the time being it is good saving up some money and what not, which is always good.

both house mates will be out by the end of the year, clair has plans of moving with her boyfriend at end of november and chrystal is thinking of taking the lease over of where we are currently living, which would be good..



Today I saw my dad, (as i do every friday) and it was a really awesome time, I love spending time with my dad, because this year we have grown alot closer and just started talking and opening up alot more, i have such a deep relationship with my father, I just i love him so much, he shared some really deep stuff today about his past and i admire him for it, that he was able to pour his heart out and let me no what it was like for him, it was good to talk about, i hope that it didn't upset him talking about the past, but i thank god each day for my father and even though he has made mistakes i am so proud of him and how fair he has come. he may not do alot with his life, but hes been through alot and after today i understand him alot better,

my dad said some pretty sweet stuff today: he said that when ever he was feeling sick and ready to do something silly, that hed think of me, and he would go and work through the issue....

i just...it made my heart melt...cos i never really thought my dad felt like that about me,

but its so good to no that he does, and that i do actually have some what of a normal parent...

i love my dad with all my heart...

If there is one thing that I HATE more then anything in this whole entire universe...its lying...I despise it with a passion, and I find it very hard to let go of something if someone has lied to me...

its hard, god wants us to respect and love each other, when you have someone not treating you with respect, it gets so much harder, i sit here and boil on my anger and try to hold it all in, and i swear im so close to just explode....

as you can guess, someone has lied to me about some stuff, and its very frustrating when I am putting in every effort to trust this person, instead she is twisting and lying and I do not like that at all,

I cant stand two faced people.

and I hate it because i used to be like it, and I no that i hurt alot of people, especially my family, if not its what broke us a little...because i was not honest about things going on in my life and i hid it all, and then the truth got found out and a whole heap of mess came along with it,

and I look back now and I go...WHY DIDNT I JUST BE HONEST FROM THE START! it would have made it all easier, yes people would have been hurt, but at the end the pain would not have been as bad as the lies....

I have had alot of friends lie and stuff to me in the past, and its something that i've struggled to let go, I always keep it in the back of my mind,

and that is something that i think always happens when trust is broken. u talk to the person who lied to u with the thought in ur head "i wonder if this is even truth."

and that is now how i will feel whenever i am around this person....oh well....such is life i guess,

i need to let this all out or I will just explode into a thousand peices...

im very hurt right now and very mad....




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on a happier line...

drew has a job interview on friday for a full time job in the it field, I hope and pray that he gets the job, it would be really awesome, full time gives drew better privilages rather then casual posistion u miss out on the kicks of a full time job..

i am still on the hunt for a job, no such luck yet, i find lots but never ever get a call back, and it frustrates me....

but oh well, guess we will see, I would love to even work at coles or safe way or something, I applied for both of them yesterday, i even applied for KFC and i dnt think i want to work there though, as its around fatty foods yuck....

ive started back at the gym again, I am going to be going once a week for a couple of hours with my good friends, it will be good,

and then i am walking the dog every other day....

mum and dad are comming up on the weekend, which will also be cool,

its going to be a full house on sunday

claires boyfriends staying
claires parents are coming
and drews parents are coming...

haha party! woot woot :D!

nah family time is always good...

I have not seen my mum in sometime, hope to catch up with her next week or something, she has a job which is awesome, and she is getting pretty good pay also, so i hope that she sticks the job out and makes her self some good cash


its my birthday in 4 weeks...19 YAY

i feel about 39...

but u no! thats ok...

i think i have said enough for now,


bye bye

hello everyone,

have not blogged here for sometime,

life has been going ok,

last mentioned we were going to buy a house all set to, but plans have changed, once again, Andrew decided that at the current time it is not safe to go ahead with getting along due to not having a secure job and stuff like that, which I understand and respect, I am still upset about it, but I respect the choice he has made.

today i cleaned the lounge room and threw out heaps of rubbish and what not, so the room is alot cleaner now which is good :D! i like having a clean home!

Tomorow I am going to go look through a rental house, drew and i may as well get on the hunt for a new home that we will move into OCT but if we found something sooner it would not be a problem either..

we still want to live in something fairly new and nice so i hope that we find something in a good price range and affordable.

We also now have another new house mate so now we have a full house, and its a little different, its hard to get used to, I have alot more washing and stuff to do...

but its good mothering practice hehe!

over the last few weeks i have been applying for any job that I see, I really want a job as I want to save up some money before we start a family, so its important to rack up some cash, but its frustrating because there are no good jobs, I actually do have a job but the crappy thing is is that i have not been given any hours, so im sitting here all day waiting for some work to come in and there has not been any, I am a bit annoyed at that, as I assumed that things would get up and running fairly fast, instead it has been dragged out and ive been left with no employment..

I desire to work in admin more then anything, that would be pretty awesome, but the crappy thing is for that is that they want experince and they dnt have alot, but I NO that i would be SO good at it, and that is what frsutrates me...

someone please give me a job...:(

hello..

I have not written a blog in a long time, and I am sorry everyone who reads this blog that i have not written in a while!!

so an update for all of those who care!!! (it would be interesting to no who reads my blog! please leave a comment!)

drew and i have decided that we are going to buy a home! YAY we are both really excited.. we have decided to build a home and we have been in the middle of choosing the colours and design and everything and also awaiting approval on the loan, so i hope that we do get approved and then we can start building...

it is going to take 6 months for the house to get built but it wont probably start untill next month or the month after even, but i am soo excited about it, and its going to be awesome!!!

our house is going to be a three bedroom house and its just perfect :)

and on top of that...

we also have a new house mate moving in to the house we are renting, to help with money so we will have two house mates which will be interesting, but i think there meant to live with us for a reason, which is also cool, there both awesome girls and are defintaly my best mates, so i am fairly hopeful that it will all be good.

well i think i have said enough for tonight,

i will write more tomorow,

please comment! tell me your faviourte color:)

love is like a rose,
the thorns that tend to hurt,
the challenges that tend to rise
when you meant to be sweapt of your feet,
moment after moment, the attitude can change,
but make an effort to remember
the reason you become,

hold his hand, because you love him,
kiss him because it is so special,
dont think of anything else but the moments that you can share
love is not hard, we just like to make it that way
it can be easy, when you listen to each other..

there is no point in aruging,
when the problem will always remain
let it go and just relax
and try to work through it differently,

dont just get mad,
or throw something,
just take a break and remember
the moment that you fell for each other.

it does not matter if tomorow is grey
remember the day that sweapt you away
it will get you through the hard ones,
because there will be plenty..