anything and everything..

good bye

2008-07-28T04:09:00.000-07:00

http://www.creatingdata.com/wordsofmah/

HEY EVERYONE :)

I have a newww words of mah domain!

Please remember it, and please read and comment and enjoy reading..

I am no longer going to be posting in here,

so this is my last post aww :(

I have appreciated all the support and like to no that people have an interest in my life, as I also have an interest in yours :)

please enjoy my new blog,

it will soon have my music and pictures, as I love photography..

please enjoy,

and please comment :)

Lots of Love

Hayley!

under construction

2008-07-24T01:07:00.000-07:00

I have decided to redo my blog, and its going to have a new url and everything, so i hope that everyone will follow! I am still going to be blogging here for a while untill i get the site exactly how i want it, I want it to be pretty groovy!

well we kicked our house mate out, unfortunatly lies kept happening and i had had enough...we all had had enough, so shell be out on friday

YAY

lifestyles...

2008-07-18T08:24:00.000-07:00

hello, this week has been a whirl of every emotion...

happy, sad, angry, happy.......

things are a little better in regards to the house mates, we had a good talk tonight and sorted through some issues so i feel a bit better then before, there were alot of things going through my mind, but I was able to express it and talk to her about it all, so things are a lot better now, but not one hundred percent.

things take time i guess...

drew and i have started our search for a rental to move into, we are wanting to live in something newer and nicer, hopefully we find something within our price range..

we have decided that we wont have house mates go on with us, but for the time being it is good saving up some money and what not, which is always good.

both house mates will be out by the end of the year, clair has plans of moving with her boyfriend at end of november and chrystal is thinking of taking the lease over of where we are currently living, which would be good..

Today I saw my dad, (as i do every friday) and it was a really awesome time, I love spending time with my dad, because this year we have grown alot closer and just started talking and opening up alot more, i have such a deep relationship with my father, I just i love him so much, he shared some really deep stuff today about his past and i admire him for it, that he was able to pour his heart out and let me no what it was like for him, it was good to talk about, i hope that it didn't upset him talking about the past, but i thank god each day for my father and even though he has made mistakes i am so proud of him and how fair he has come. he may not do alot with his life, but hes been through alot and after today i understand him alot better,

my dad said some pretty sweet stuff today: he said that when ever he was feeling sick and ready to do something silly, that hed think of me, and he would go and work through the issue....

i just...it made my heart melt...cos i never really thought my dad felt like that about me,

but its so good to no that he does, and that i do actually have some what of a normal parent...

i love my dad with all my heart...

dont ever lie....

2008-07-16T07:30:00.000-07:00

If there is one thing that I HATE more then anything in this whole entire universe...its lying...I despise it with a passion, and I find it very hard to let go of something if someone has lied to me...

its hard, god wants us to respect and love each other, when you have someone not treating you with respect, it gets so much harder, i sit here and boil on my anger and try to hold it all in, and i swear im so close to just explode....

as you can guess, someone has lied to me about some stuff, and its very frustrating when I am putting in every effort to trust this person, instead she is twisting and lying and I do not like that at all,

I cant stand two faced people.

and I hate it because i used to be like it, and I no that i hurt alot of people, especially my family, if not its what broke us a little...because i was not honest about things going on in my life and i hid it all, and then the truth got found out and a whole heap of mess came along with it,

and I look back now and I go...WHY DIDNT I JUST BE HONEST FROM THE START! it would have made it all easier, yes people would have been hurt, but at the end the pain would not have been as bad as the lies....

I have had alot of friends lie and stuff to me in the past, and its something that i've struggled to let go, I always keep it in the back of my mind,

and that is something that i think always happens when trust is broken. u talk to the person who lied to u with the thought in ur head "i wonder if this is even truth."

and that is now how i will feel whenever i am around this person....oh well....such is life i guess,

i need to let this all out or I will just explode into a thousand peices...

im very hurt right now and very mad....

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on a happier line...

drew has a job interview on friday for a full time job in the it field, I hope and pray that he gets the job, it would be really awesome, full time gives drew better privilages rather then casual posistion u miss out on the kicks of a full time job..

i am still on the hunt for a job, no such luck yet, i find lots but never ever get a call back, and it frustrates me....

but oh well, guess we will see, I would love to even work at coles or safe way or something, I applied for both of them yesterday, i even applied for KFC and i dnt think i want to work there though, as its around fatty foods yuck....

ive started back at the gym again, I am going to be going once a week for a couple of hours with my good friends, it will be good,

and then i am walking the dog every other day....

mum and dad are comming up on the weekend, which will also be cool,

its going to be a full house on sunday

claires boyfriends staying
claires parents are coming
and drews parents are coming...

haha party! woot woot :D!

nah family time is always good...

I have not seen my mum in sometime, hope to catch up with her next week or something, she has a job which is awesome, and she is getting pretty good pay also, so i hope that she sticks the job out and makes her self some good cash

its my birthday in 4 weeks...19 YAY

i feel about 39...

but u no! thats ok...

i think i have said enough for now,

bye bye

wanting a job

2008-07-14T04:14:00.000-07:00

hello everyone,

have not blogged here for sometime,

life has been going ok,

last mentioned we were going to buy a house all set to, but plans have changed, once again, Andrew decided that at the current time it is not safe to go ahead with getting along due to not having a secure job and stuff like that, which I understand and respect, I am still upset about it, but I respect the choice he has made.

today i cleaned the lounge room and threw out heaps of rubbish and what not, so the room is alot cleaner now which is good :D! i like having a clean home!

Tomorow I am going to go look through a rental house, drew and i may as well get on the hunt for a new home that we will move into OCT but if we found something sooner it would not be a problem either..

we still want to live in something fairly new and nice so i hope that we find something in a good price range and affordable.

We also now have another new house mate so now we have a full house, and its a little different, its hard to get used to, I have alot more washing and stuff to do...

but its good mothering practice hehe!

over the last few weeks i have been applying for any job that I see, I really want a job as I want to save up some money before we start a family, so its important to rack up some cash, but its frustrating because there are no good jobs, I actually do have a job but the crappy thing is is that i have not been given any hours, so im sitting here all day waiting for some work to come in and there has not been any, I am a bit annoyed at that, as I assumed that things would get up and running fairly fast, instead it has been dragged out and ive been left with no employment..

I desire to work in admin more then anything, that would be pretty awesome, but the crappy thing is for that is that they want experince and they dnt have alot, but I NO that i would be SO good at it, and that is what frsutrates me...

someone please give me a job...:(

hello world.

2008-07-02T06:07:00.000-07:00

hello..

I have not written a blog in a long time, and I am sorry everyone who reads this blog that i have not written in a while!!

so an update for all of those who care!!! (it would be interesting to no who reads my blog! please leave a comment!)

drew and i have decided that we are going to buy a home! YAY we are both really excited.. we have decided to build a home and we have been in the middle of choosing the colours and design and everything and also awaiting approval on the loan, so i hope that we do get approved and then we can start building...

it is going to take 6 months for the house to get built but it wont probably start untill next month or the month after even, but i am soo excited about it, and its going to be awesome!!!

our house is going to be a three bedroom house and its just perfect :)

and on top of that...

we also have a new house mate moving in to the house we are renting, to help with money so we will have two house mates which will be interesting, but i think there meant to live with us for a reason, which is also cool, there both awesome girls and are defintaly my best mates, so i am fairly hopeful that it will all be good.

well i think i have said enough for tonight,

i will write more tomorow,

please comment! tell me your faviourte color:)

2008-06-28T03:12:00.000-07:00

love is like a rose,
the thorns that tend to hurt,
the challenges that tend to rise
when you meant to be sweapt of your feet,
moment after moment, the attitude can change,
but make an effort to remember
the reason you become,

hold his hand, because you love him,
kiss him because it is so special,
dont think of anything else but the moments that you can share
love is not hard, we just like to make it that way
it can be easy, when you listen to each other..

there is no point in aruging,
when the problem will always remain
let it go and just relax
and try to work through it differently,

dont just get mad,
or throw something,
just take a break and remember
the moment that you fell for each other.

it does not matter if tomorow is grey
remember the day that sweapt you away
it will get you through the hard ones,
because there will be plenty..

life...

2008-06-16T17:12:00.000-07:00

hello, This week has already had heaps on!

monday: well this was yesterday! and yesterday i hung out with my friend jess and i cleaned the house, we now have a new house mate, and she has just recently moved out of home, and needed somewhere asap, so we offered a room seeing we have three, so i spent the day and evening setting the spare room up, i have to say i did a good job!

tuesday: well this is today, and i am babysitting at the moment, (cute little bubba!) and she is fast asleep, which is good cos when she is awake she usually just cries for mum, but i think its good for mum to get away for a few hours to have some space.

well im sure the rest of the week will be just as good! im going to my nans tonite for a cuppa with dad, and then im cooking a big welcoming meal for our house mate and my best friend is comming around also, i think drew is excited about the fact that we have a house mate, as its motiviated me to cook nice meals!

later on in this week i have dassi training, and i am driving to geelong for that,
im looking forward to it,

and then i can finally start working,

finally!!!!

random

2008-06-15T06:54:00.000-07:00

hope,
holding
waiting
desire

i see
i feel
it aches
to not hold

all these numbers
rushing in my mind
i chose you to by my one
but no time like now

i dont no the words
to say
there are these tears
that i dont understand

i want to see you smile
and actually mean it
its hard, because im so unsure of what to say

i want to tell u that i love you
even though we are not best friends
i just want to hug and cry with u

i just want to scream out
because i dont understand

who is god
whats he doing
cant he see ur pain

i dont understand
why he lets it all go on

i just want to be there for you
id like to be

im sorry
because im so scared to say the wrong thing

i just love u

your whole world changes...

2008-06-09T04:12:00.000-07:00

Today was a lazy kinda day that involved nothing big! it was nice, drew had no work today and my friend bec and i finally got to catch up some more today which was cool also,

worship went really well on sunday, it was fun fun fun! I feel so alive for christ when im singing and worshiping him...

On sunday two of our friends came to church with there new born baby, and she is sooo beautiful, my heart just melted, it always does. I almost always cry when i see a new born baby, its a little bit corney...but soon enough we will hopefully have our own bundle of joy that we can love to bits and oooo and are over and laugh and cry and scream and sigh with :P!

I think that everything changes, when you start to get a huge passion to have children. something just burns deep inside and it only grows each day, esspecially the more and more u desire it, the bigger that passion becomes, I think that is how it is with alot of things..

i wrote a new song the other day, its on my myspace if anyone would like to listen:
www.myspace.com/onetwothreewords

it is the first one on top of the list,
hope that you all enjoy it,

6 months :)

2008-06-07T07:34:00.000-07:00

well it has been half year since getting married :) wow,
so much has happened in these last 6 months it feels like 6 years!

This month has been going by slowly, havnt had any drs appoints yet, but should do within a few weeks, assuming things pan out they way there suppose to, guess we shall see,

tonight im worship leading at church, and am looking forward to it very muchly :)

last night i went out with bec and effie and teresa and we did karaoke at peter laylor, it was SWEET! but i sounded terrible! haha,

but your meant to when u do karaoke!!!

Currently drew and i have been seriously thinking about moving to geelong, which is BIG! drew has a job ineterview on wednesday in geelong so we are hoping that it goes well and he gets this job, it is full time and would be awesome, then we can live near the beach :)

but atm its all about what happens in regards to work, so wherever god takes us we will go, we are hoping that drew gets this job, but we shall see,

it would be nice :)

I have lived in ballarat for 18 years! never lived anywhere else, cept for in hamilton for about a month hehe! and that was not with drew, so I think a change of place may be good for us both, something new something challengeing, but we shall see.

I think ive written enough for now its almost one am and im tired!!

bye bye

life

2008-05-27T06:12:00.000-07:00

Hello,

Today was a busy day, i woke up a little to late! but then i went to my friends house and drove her to a few places which took up alot of the day and then went out for lunch with a friend which was at 2, and then by the time we finished it was time to head to my nan's for tea! so it was one of those days that didn't involve much but felt really full,

tomorow i have a job interview at O'neil transport in ballarat it is for a cert 2 in admin, so I am hoping that i get this job, as something full time would be good plus the other work on top would be good also so id have a bit of money comming in and i would feel a bit more independance,

please forgive me for my bad spelling, I am so tired tonight, I am going to bed after i have finished this, and then I will be up fresh and early for my job interview.

I am going shopping tomorow for some black pants, ive decided that i need a nice pair as i dont have any and i dont like wearing skirts in winter! and they are nice to wear for job interviews,

so im going to have some nice clothes...

better dash

love :)

Hello world,

2008-05-25T18:01:00.001-07:00

hey there everyone,

this weekend has been a fun weekend :)!

Andrew and I went to Hamilton and we went to see Mum and Dad, This weekend I started making a quilt with mum, we picked out some material and got started on it! so Im excited about that! sounds a little boring, but I enjoy it!

except I keep pricking my self with the needle haha,

Today I have another dr's appointment which I dont no what will really go on, I assume its just talking and working out what is best to be planned.

This morning I went to make some toast, and SMOKE! started comming out! and it smelt like it was burning! so I turned it off, so looks like we are going to be needing a new toaster,

we were thinking of buying two in one deal like a keattle and toaster, cos then we have a new one of each,

I got a job which is also very exciting,

I dont start till next month as there needs to be some training that is comming up,
and then I can start working, but atm I am in the middle of getting matched up with some clients,

I am really excited about this work as it is a step in the door to something that I am most passionate about,

which can only be a good thing :)

update on my life

2008-05-20T05:23:00.001-07:00

Hello,

Today I had a Dr's Appointment which went really well, i had another scan and Dr was impressed with everything, next week i am going to see another specialist to talk about treatment which i will be start this next month coming, and then hopefully all goes well, so lets all pray and hope for the best...

This week i have a job interview with a place called Dassi, they work with people who have special needs and currently looking for someone on a casual basis in Hamilton, maybe worth a shot,

plus i could gain a lot of experience in that area, which i also think would be good,
but we will see how it goes on Thursday, they may also have something available in ballarat.

I start my childcare course next month on the 4th of June which is exciting also, so i guess there is some good things happening,

we also found out today that the lady who was applying for my house did not actually get approved so we are stuck here until October, it sucks, a lot, but thats life i guess at times.

only 6 more months to go,

i no i can handle that,

well I think i have said enough for now,

Bye BYe

children..

2008-05-15T05:08:00.000-07:00

i have had one of those evenings where i am ready to rip all my hair out and scream...

friendships....they are so hard...and if ur a girl....if ur me...there even harder! i dont no why but any friendship i have had with a girl it has never worked out, and im sick of it, lately things have been going on with a friendship where tonite it just sent me over the edge, i was just so frustrated I was sick of feeling like crap, I dont deserve that, Friends are meant to respect that, and that was not being shown,

I no im not perfect, but man I dont say harsh things....I'm a little angry right now and a little hurt, but i guess thats why it is good to have one of this things called a blog so you can vent it out, i dont wanna say anything bad about the person cos i respect them HEAPS and they no that, i'm just sick of being hurt all the time.

we have not heard back from the real estate agents yet in regards to weather we got the house we applied for and also weather the person who is going to move in had been 100% approved...but i am fairly certain she has been, i will be so mad if it falls through, because that is what always seems to happen!

next week i have to goto the dr's for another scan, so wish me luck...

work has been quiet today...

wanting more!

life

2008-05-12T23:34:00.000-07:00

Hello,

so fair this week I have been sick in bed with the worst flu in the world...

I am soo sick of getting sick!!!!

But on a much happier note I got accepted into my childcare course :)! YAY!

it all now comes down to them getting enough numbers for the course,
which I hope and pray that they will :)

I am very happy about this as I will get to hopefully finish my course and have my cert three in childcare.

we should also find out with in the next few days if we got approved for the house we applied for,

hoping that we have,

2008-05-11T06:21:00.000-07:00

hello world..

so there is a fair bit to update on since my last blog...

1: the car....didnt sell! :( i was soooo upset! but u no then i guess god really spoke to me, (i no how awesome!) and i got a call from BGT employment about a job that i applied for sometime ago, and that i had an interview, which was to be the next day, so i was pretty excited and relieved that my car was not sold as I would be needing it if I get a job...So the next day I am all set for my interview and the interview went REALLY well, The guy was so nice and we just got along and i felt really confident in the interview, which is new for me! and he told me at the end of the interview that he was really impressed and that i did really well in the interview...so i then had to wait a few days to find out if i am short listed or not...

2: the next day!....The guy calls "Hayley, Hello, you have been short listed...:) WHOOOWHOOO!!!!" I was jumping like a jack in the box, very excited, and the news got better, the next interview was with someone that i new really well! which boosted my confidence even more because that meant i would pretty much have the cat in the bag!!! SO i was pretty happy, this day was also good because i got a call from the SMB about a childcare course about to start and that the enrolment night was that night and so was the written exam, so I also went to that and did the test and everything, I find out this week if the course will be definatly running or not.

3:Friday...the day of disaster....after a wonderful week of wonderful highs, that i was praising god for...it all just seemed to explode when I recieved a call from the guy at BGT he told me that the bussiness i was going for an interview with had found someone outside of BGT....i was soo upset, but the guy said that he is going to put me down for the future up comming admin jobs, which im hopeful about...

i was upset, because my week was started badly...with the car...and then just started to get better after that, but then it went down again, sometimes i think i have a lot of bad luck on my side at times, but then i no god is making me stronger with these test and trials, and i have to praise him for that, and i no that there are a lot more to come.

this weekend has been also wonderful...

4. saturday was oska mahs birthday party and it was awesome! we also had lunch together, and it was a really nice time, mum had also brought the quilt patchwork she made andrew and I, and it is soo nice, and keeping me warm! I dont no about drew..cos i take all the blankets hehehe!!

5. mothers day....today... today my dad and i and nan and pa all went up to geelong to see my auntie and uncle and cousin, and also my other aunty and her boyfriend and son came up from melbourne, and we all had some lunch together, and then just chilled out for the day at my aunties, it was alot of fun, i miss seeing my family, as I dont usually see my family who live in melbourne and geelong anymore...and i miss that heaps....

i guess alot has changed over the last few years in my life....

drew and i celebrated 5 months the other day, and it took me a whole day to remeber that! im hopeless,

it feels so much longer then 5 months, i guess because so much has happened...

drew and i have also been together 18months!!! :)

i love my dataman...

goodmorning.

2008-05-05T14:47:00.000-07:00

Good morning everyone,

Today is going to be a nice day :)

Yesterday was a bit stressful! mainly because my mind was racing at 100 times faster then it normally should!!! We have for some time been having people we no apply for the house we are currently renting as we want to move out, and for ages no one was getting approved, but someone finally has been! so we are on the move, and in need of finding a new home, there is one that we both like alot, which I am going to look at on Thursday! so hopefully it is nice, it would be good if the next place we move to can be permanent and nice and suitble to bring a family up in, we are both very sick of moving...

we are moving out of here for many reasons,
the house is old and there are always problems, and the realestate agent's struggle to help, which is quiet annoying, and we dont have very nice neighbours, as I have mentioned before we have party guys on one side, and a grumpy old man who is actually quiet scary on the other side,

I cant wait to get away,

rent is so costly, esspecially if you want to live in something nice, and esspecially if you have pets, you have to be willing to pay that bit extra in order to be able to live in something nice.

but god will show us where he wants us to go! as he has helped us get this fair, so I no he will provide a place for us...

I have also sold my car!! YAY! which is a GOOD thing! especially with everything that is going on at the moment, we are going to save HEAPS of money having one car, and it will b good as it will get me up early in the mornings to drive andrew to work.

This weekend it will be oska's birthday I am excited! as it is going to be a fun time! and then on sunday andrew and i are heading to geelong for mothers day and it is also my cousins birthday..

I still dont no what to get my nan and mum! (i have 2 mums!) I want to get my nan something special, esspecially seeing she has done so much for me,

mothers day really is a special day, I guess it does not necessirally mean you have to give a gift to your biological mum, it is more so to appreciate the mother who has played the motherly role...if that makes sense..I used to always get angry at the mushy cards and everything on mothers day, mainly because i was so angry at my mum, because I would look at those words and think! thats not her! but through time I have learnt to respect her, and find the good in her....im still searching!

One thing I am very passionate about is being a mother, and its something that I no i am going to be good at, something that I no i will LOVE with all my heart, I have so many fears at the same time, to think that I will one day have a baby that will grow to be a adult that andrew and I have to shape and help grow into a mature and faithful person...it scares me in the fact that I dont want to let my children down, and I dont want them to resent me later on in life...but i no im going to embrace motherhood and i am going to be good at it, regardless of the fears I have about it.

I cant believe how cold it is getting in the b rat, well its always cold...just colder!!!! andrew and I invested in a electric blanket the other weekend, and it is nice and warmmmm! i dont like getting up in the mornings!!!

well I think i have written enough for today!

2008-04-30T02:54:00.000-07:00

hello...

lately i have not posted in a while and that is because life has been a bit busy!

I have sold my car YAY it is sooo good, i didnt think i would get rid of it so quickly,
but we decided to sell the car so we can have the extra bit of money, plus we are going to be needing a bigger car eventually anyway! so selling it i think is a wise choice..

so just a small update...:)

good times and frustrating times...

2008-04-23T07:39:00.000-07:00

Hello there everyone...

This week has been a busy stressful crazy week, and I am very much ready to run away on a holiday...

I am no longer able to complete my childcare course through CMC, as they have decided to be in a few different places around Melbourne over the next few weeks, and I dont think i could handle trying to find a different place, i dont really like Melbourne..

So it is back to the drawing board of what to do, at the moment I do not no 100%

there are two options

finish school....

or

drew and I are getting very serious about starting our home business data design.. Drew has shown me SO much and I have come pretty fair with what I have learnt and can work on a lot of websites by my self now, so I am considering taking this oppurtunity to get into the web design and learn more of drew and do that as a job, because there are a lot of positives, i can work from home, which i think is the best thing, and i can work around the things I have to do, so if i wanted to be involved in the church more or something i can because the work is flexible.

obviously I like the second option, but then that is a second leave of year 12, which i no is not a good thing either, but i guess you dont need year 12 to conqur the world, there are things i want to do in my life, that dont need year 12, maybe i went back because i felt like i had to do something, as at the time i didn't really feel where god was calling me,

its all in gods hands

my darling husband

2008-04-18T21:33:00.000-07:00

Hey there!

Today is a saturday! and its been a lazy day so fair, we have not got that much planned for today, its nice just to relax,

last night drew and i went to my bestfriends church and it was a really good service, it was alot smaller then yorkie, and it was really nice, everyone was really nice also, was cool,

This sunday Is the youth take over service at our church and I will be worship leading! which is exciting,

Yesterday I went to the childcare centre I am going to be doing my placement at, and everyone was really nice, i am looking forward to working there and I no it is going to be an awesome time,

Drew came home the other day with some beautiful yellow roses! :) what a sweet husband! :)

here is a picture:

today is the day....

2008-04-13T21:58:00.000-07:00

Hello there everyone,

well today has been one of those boring days where not much happens, but something good is eventually gonna happen! and that is tonite my best friend gets back from kenya, who i have missed HEAPS! i think i will cry when i see her! as I have missed her that much,

today was athelitcs day at school so I have been at home chilling out and cleaning and studying and blogging and writing some new songs,

i hope this year to write and get some proper recording done for my songs, so i can get some gigs and thing, it would be nice, I would like to have someone else in my band, like someone on piano, or guitar, as I suck at guitar and it would be good to have someone who could play the complicated stuff, and then i could do a few covers and stuff,

anyone out there who would like to play guitar for me email me!!!! or piano!!!!

drew will be home soon :) i miss him!!! but then i have to go again! and wont be back till later on tonight, it is scary driving at night time, but ill have adrienne to follow so all should be alright!

i have alot of home work...*sigh* things are just going to get more stressful before they get better,

as I have childcare work,
home work from school...
and working and travelling to werribee and childcare centre,

its alot on, but hey it will keep my life full so I wont be able to complain I am bored!!!

well I have said enough for now,

BYE!

hello world

2008-04-13T04:07:00.000-07:00

hey there everyone,

i have not blogged for a while! life has been pretty busy lately and a bit stressful, but everything is finally working out and things are not so stressful now! I am now enrolled in a cert three in child care so i will be now traveling one day a week to werribee to study and one day a week also working at a center in ballarat, I am heaps excited as i now have the chance to finish my apprenticeship and i will also complete year 12 as well, and then next year i will be able to work and not study.

last night i went out for my friends 18th and i met up with my best friend and we went to the bended elbow, we all had an awesome time! we all danced the night away, except now I am paying for it a bit!! but it is ok because we all had an awesome time,

i was saying to drew before how i cant believe how some people party like every weekend! I think that is pretty insane! I am proud to say that we dont party every weekend.

Tomorrow I am traveling to Melbourne to pick up my best friend and other people from our church as they will have returned back from kenya! which is pretty awesome! i cant wait to see me beccy girl again :)

well i think i have said enough for now,

bye bye

16

2008-04-05T05:04:00.000-07:00

hey there everyone :)

today has been an awesome day, today drew and I went shopping and I tried on some clothes and i am beginning to fit into a size 16 again YAY! which may seem big to some people, but its good as i am getting closer and closer to my goal :)

On friday I had my first personal training session and WOAH! it was SO full on! but really good, I was very proud of my self for surviving it, so I am now on going to be going to the gym twice a day and then on fridays seeing my personal trainer! SO look out world here comes the new Hayley :)

I am back at school tomorow and ive been doing last minute training, but im actually looking forward going back to school as ive been pretty bored these holidays,

tonight i cooked roast chicken for drew and I, and it tasted alright, it was the second time i have ever cooked one, but will need to improve a bit more next time.

well i do not no what else to say but will write more tomorow night :)

Bye

working out

2008-04-03T03:26:00.000-07:00

hey there everyone,

this week has gone slow for me, i go back to school next monday! it feels like i have been on holidays for 5 weeks rather then just 2, I did not think id get so bored, but I did and am! ha ha! but i cant wait to get stuck back in to term two!! only a billion more to go :P!

nah, but it is good, this year will go quick, which is good, things have been developing in the childcare work area, my old teacher has recently started a childcare center, and is needing someone about 15 hours a week (which would be two days) and I had been asking her weather i could complete my trainee ship with her, and she is finding out this week (i hope!) if i can or not offer her supervisor, I am really excited about the prospect of working! :)

so things are looking up,

I have been going to the gym, today I went twice, I have decided that I am going to go morning and night now as I will benift more of a work out and I will loose more weight, the more fat i burn the quicker i will loose weight! I am also going to start seeing a personal trainer once a week, which is also exciting it is my first training session tomorrow night, which i am looking forward to,

its so intense at the gym, I did not think id ever keep at it, but i have been and all the sweat and pain is worth it, cos i walk out feeling stronger then i did before i walked in, I have been feeling already so much more confident in myself, and clothes are beginning to get baggy on me! which is also exciting,

this Sunday i am worship leading again, this time i am doing 2 songs lord i lift your name on high and god of wonders :) my nan and dad are coming also which i think is really awesome,

at the moment we have a beeping fire alarm, which is slowly but surely starting to drive me insane :S! but soon it will be fixed,

well i think i have said enough for now, i will post more tomorow night on how i went at the gym with my first personal training session :)

well,

BYE!

My new hairstyle,

2008-03-30T16:05:00.000-07:00

this is what i am going to be getting done,

i will put pictures of me later :P

Today!

2008-03-27T19:20:00.000-07:00

Hey there world,

today has been a supa busy kinda day!

this morning i woke up at 9! and had to rush and get dressed and help a lady from church go and do a few things before she went away on holidays, and then my friend katie came around and I have cut and died her hair, I really enjoy doing people's hair, I am thinking weather next year I do a hairdressing course? there are so many things id love to do, but it is so hard to choose, i no i am good at childcare, counciling and hairdressing, im sure there are other things, but there the three things i think id be most good at,

but yeah! who no's where Im destined to be,

i am thinking of asking at school if there are any school based apprentiships in hairdressing, as it would be a good chance to study and work at the same time, and have that bit of money comming in,

currently drew and I are considering moving into a cheaper rental, as it would be good to save as much as we possible good over the next year or so, so then we can look into buying a home, as i guess the more income we have the nicer house we can look into buying, I have been looking at a few two bedrooms, but actually found a decent one bedroom, that would be perfect for us, it has lots of space and a closed in back yard, so the dog would not escape, and I dont think for the time being we need a huge house, but i guess we will see, at the moment we are considering moving, but that would mean we would have to break this lease, but thankfully we have three people who would take it over, which would be somewhat good,

I guess we just got to keep praying that god will show us where he wants us to be, as god is good and will provide for us,

last night i was praying that the dog would not bark while she is outside over night :) and she didnt, she hasnt all day, and i praise god for that :)

well I think i have said enough,

Bye :)

4am annoyance

2008-03-26T17:30:00.000-07:00

Well, today has already been interesting for me! This morning at 9am, i hear a loud knock at the door, and i was just waking up, so i was not sure who it would be, I went to answer it, and it is the next door neighbour, and I said hello, and he said "yeah you, your husband said that he was going to do something about your dog barking, and i said yes, well we cant ask her to stop, she just keeps barking either way, and he said your dog woke me up at 4am this morning and barked for two hours, and I said that we did not even hear it, and he stood right upto my face and said that if i dont do something about it he is going to ring the council, and i said right, well there is not much we can do, and he just said well you better think of something, and then left."

well, i was a bit upset, as he was quiet rude and invasive, and i cant stand that kind of confrontation....but as annoyed at him i was, i did realise how frustrating it must be for him, drew and i realise that yes we do need to bring lucy in more, she is so hypa though it is very annoying, she come's in and goes spastic, we are going to go and buy a cage (not to lock her in!) but i have been reading up on house training and one site talked about getting a cage big enough for them to just sleep in and allowing them to sleep in that at night and to also put them in there when your going our or something, as they will learn to hold on, as dog's do not like to goto the toilet in there sleeping spot, so over night they sleep in that then take them outside to goto the toilet, and then you can bring them back in again, i think it will be good for lucy, as I would love to have her as an inside dog,

so lets hope that it will work, and that we can train her up...

i do not want to have to talk to our neighbour again, as i do not like him much at all, well i dont like either of our neighbours to be honest, on one side we have a grumpy old man who complains and on the other there are about 4 idiots who party hard and get drunk, and right now one of them is singing really badly. oh the frustation of having neighbours.....

i want to live in the middle of no where!

2008-03-25T14:42:00.000-07:00

hey there everyone :)

silly me forgot to post the pictures!

I shall post some now!

This weekend was easter, and Drew and i went to hamilton, and had a wonderfully cooked lunch on sunday, and then had to rush back to ballarat, as I was singing at church, I got to lead worship for the first time, with three other people who hadnt either, we were all a bit nervous! but it was alot of fun! and i really enjoyed it, I love being up there and singing to god and leading my brothers and sisters in worship, it is fun and rewarding.

I am missing my best friend HEAPS, she has gone to Kenya with her dad, my youth minister and three other people, for a mission trip with our church, I think it would be really amazing to travel there one day :) I do hope to,
Please keep praying for them, as kenya has had a bit of unrest lately, things are just starting to settle down, and just over the three weeks we need to keep praying that there is no unrest and that the team really grow in faith and strength and have an amazing time.

so back to the photo's.
i really enjoy it :) obviously!

i got my bestfriend bec to be model and alex her sister :)
it was alot fun,

update..

2008-03-19T13:55:00.000-07:00

Hey there everyone!

I am sorry that I have not posted anywhere in a while! if you have come here recently...and been directed to a dodgy website well! I am very sorry! The website drew and I are working on was not really working, as it is free webhosting we are wanting to get as it is so costly...but this site we got was causing us heaps of issues, so we scrapped it, and started a new one! here
it is still not running perfect, but keep checking it out! things will continue to be added now and then when we have both got the time to work on it!

Drew has been teaching me a fair bit of webdesign, which I have to say! I really really enjoy! im not perfect at it yet, but I have been doing the updates on one website now for drew and Im very proud of myself!!! but it can get really frustrating at times...

I do prefer photography!

School, well ive missed a little school this week as i have been sick, but I am doing well! and not that much behind! which is good :) I got a really good report being a nerd and all! :)

so back to photography! as some of you no, I am doing digital photography this year at school! and I am LOVING it! i have even got a funky new camera! that is working wonders :)

here are some photos I have taken for my folio:

sorry i have not blogged...

2008-02-24T04:19:00.000-08:00

hey there everyone,

sorry I have not really updated here in a while! i bet you have all been just desperatly waiting for my latest! on my wonderfully not so interesting life!!!

nothing has been happening really, i have had a really good last few days just reflecting on a whole heap of things and getting back in touch with god! its amazing what god can show u in a day let alone three! I have decided this year that I want to get involved alot more in the working of our church, I really want to become more apart of it, and just get involved! and fill my life up with some fun stuff, so school doesnt bring me completely down....I am now an apprentice leader in the youth ministry! and I am also starting training for worship leading :) i am very excited about it all, i think the one thing im most eager about is the youth ministry as I will get to no some people and just have a really awesome time at youth events and also at the camp comming up!

i have not been going to the gym lately, but have still been eating healthy and doing my best to stay clear of the bad foods, ive lost a total of 5 kilo and im going to keep it off!!!!

school has been stressful as ive missed a bit this last week i was pretty sick so ive been trying to recover, and i dont no weather im better completely or not, i think im just a little stresssed with stuff, but not to worry ill be ok!

so i mentioned a while ago that i was going to start a website! well my friends and family, it is pretty much up and running, there are a few troubles, but we are planning to fix them all up fairly soon,

so i will be gladly tell you all of my new webiste which i hope you will visit and check out and love! :)

click here to check out the new words of mah!

Long time no post! im sorry!

2008-02-09T16:32:00.000-08:00

I no! I no! i said I would post in here every day, but at the moment it is looking like it will be once a week!

It was Andrews birthday on Wednesday! I am guessing he had a fun time! We went out for tea to lapachettas, and then we came home and had some cake and wine which was very nice!

we were going to goto the movies but it would have been too late considering Andrew had to go to work the next day! and i had school!

School has been super busy as well, i have so much homework coming out of my ears it isn't funny!!! but it does not bother me as i am getting there slowly..

I no have an official job ( well its cash in hand!) but i am cleaning a friends house three times a week for 15 dollars an hour, so thats around 45 a week! which i think is pretty good and its money in the long run that i can put away for drew and i to save...

we have both been thinking of selling my car, ( i no we havnt had it long you say) but we just think that at the moment we dont need to cars, and we could save that bit of of money by just having one and by another one when we need to..

I have been working at the gym still and I lost another kilo this week! :) YAYAYAY! so im slowly getting there which is very very exciting, i cant wait till it just goes down down and im finally the size that i want to be..

well I dont no what else to say, i have talked about everything pretty much thats going on in my life!

Next weekend we are heading up to Sydney for Emily and Michael's wedding, which is going to be heaps of fun!

that is all for now

Bye

OH! by the way I am in the middle of getting a website up and running for my blog, so soon there will be a new url to memorize for words of mah :)

Fun times :)

2008-02-03T01:13:00.001-08:00

Hello everyone,
sorry I have not blogged in a while, the last few days i have had a few things on, I have been continuing on with the gym and I have lost three kilos! which is what the doctor wanted me to loose but i want to loose so much more than that, and i very much love going to the gym and forcing my self to work really hard because i no in the end it is going to be worth it..

On Thursday I started back at year 12, which was really challenging, but im glad to be back and finally got a chance to get through it all. I have a fair bit of home work but i wont have any trouble doing it. this year is all about forcing my self to work my hardest, I am not going to allow my self to stumble any more, because i want to make something more out of my life..

On saturday we had our wonderful interchange buddy come around, and we went to the pool for most of the day! and he had a wonderful time! he is just so wonderful to hang around with and really challenging drew and i, and its awesome.
we also then got to baby sit the wonderful oska mah! and that was also heaps of fun! we raced the racing cars and just had a good old time, i think drew was happy to goto bed at the end of the day as he was very tired!!!

this week it is drews birthday! and as much as id love to share the suprises thats installed for him! i cant cos hey he will find out!!!! but all will be revealed :)

tomorow it is my Bestest buds birthday tomorow Bec, she is turning 19, wow its so weird, but so awesome, we have been mates for over 10 years! its just wonderful, so tomorow is going to be a special day :)

well i think ive written enough for now i have to get that home work done.

Hello

2008-01-27T03:38:00.000-08:00

Hey there..
Tonight I sung at church which was totally awesome, i have not been in the worship team for a while so it was good to be up there and praising god. Next roster i will be hopefully given the chance to lead some worship songs to prep me for future worship leading hopefully. it is something I have always wanted to do, but i need to build my confidence up a bit more when up singing and just let it go and trust in god, i need to just remember that im singing for god and not for anyone else, sometimes i just get so nervous and worried about what people are thinking, but then i remind my self what being up there is all about..

So i have been going to the gym everyday for an hour at least if not more, and i have never ever felt so great in all my life..

I start school this Thursday which is really weird and exciting, i cant wait, Hope to make it through the year and i no i will hopefully pass with a good mark...

Monday drew has no work and we are going to the beach and out for lunch which we are both looking forward to..

well i better get going now, as I am really tired!!!

Bye all

morning world...

2008-01-22T12:26:00.000-08:00

Hello,

I have not blogged for a while, Yesterday Was my nan's birthday and we went out for tea :) it was lovely..We then went back to my nan's for dessert she made this really awesome pudding it was soo nice...

Today it is Emily Mah's Birthday :) Happy Birthday :)

Yesterday I also cought up with my best friend her mum (who I also call mum :P) and some other friends and we had lunch together which was really nice, we went to a cafe called such and such and I had a toasted sandwhich with a salad..it was sooo good! i dont think ive tasted anything so nice...

Today I am joining the gym with bec, and I am very excited about that, Yesterday I went on a big walk with the dog and then drew and i went for a walk together...

This weekend I am singing at church on sunday, and I havnt for a while so I am looking forward to it, Next roster I have a chance to practise worship leading with tim, (he will be leading and ill be back up.) but he will be giving me chances leading the song and stuff, which will hopefully lead to worship leading, but who knows! I am excited and nervous about it, but it is something I have always wanted to do, but at the end of the day it is all in gods hands,

this week is not going to consist of very much except going to the gym and doing my homework, i need to get it finished asap, as school is next week! wow, i cant believe its comming soo close! im getting fairly nervous about it all, but am excited also, i cant wait to finish it and get it out of the way...I think next year I will finish my childcare apprentiship, as then i will be working and studying at the same time, which will help...

well I dont have anything else to say,

new years goal..the only one so far!!!

2008-01-20T03:52:00.000-08:00

hello,

today i went to the doctors and they took all my blood!!! well the almost did! i had a heap of tests done, and he also told me that i need to loose 3kg..

so! my goal for this year i have decided is to loose some weight! and i am dead serious this time, I need to just motivate myself and get into it, I am joining the gym soon and my friend is also hopefully so we will be going to the gym together and plus walking the dog everyday and eating well should get me on a road to a healthier lifestyle...I wish i never got myself into bad eating habits as it has done a bit of damage...but I no i can loose it and keep it off it just takes work work work and motivating..

The gym that i am going to join is Body and Soul, i think it is fantastic, they are well priced and very close, so i can just walk there when i want to go :) so all in all it will be very rewarding with the exercise involved!

the one thing that will help is encouragement, i cant stand negativity when it comes to this stuff it just brings me down even more so if i stay positive about this i no i will be able to succeed.

drew and i have decided that we are going to live where we are most likely in a permanent way! not just rent for one year and move on...its taken me a while to like where we are, but i have to say that i do love our home and it is nice and cosy but also plenty of room, i think we were quiet lucky to have found this place being wear it is and all, good about it being close to school also as i will be able to walk there also..

speaking of which i start school in 2 weeks! wow! i cant believe it is drawing that close i am SOOOO excited! i no how weird! i never used to be, but i am, because i am going back because i want to, not because im expected to if that makes any sense...i dont regret leaving last year because it helped i got to work and gain experience in the working field well it wasn't very broad but hey mc donalds did its best for the time i worked there...but i am very excited about studying and actually finishing it,
i am also close to finishing my current course which is a Home and Community Carer course i have only two more books to go and then I have finished it!!! YAY! i hope to apply for a few residential jobs so i can hopefully work night shifts on weekends and that...I also have a job caring for a boy who has autism, i have babysat once so far and he was great fun we chilled out and watched a movie and played a bit of play station as well, but it is fun, and a bit of money that will be good to save up...

well i better get going, i am trying to think of different things to blog each day, but i hope im not boring you all!

OH OH! its Dad Mah's Birthday today :) Happy Birthday Dad :)

busy day!

2008-01-19T04:06:00.000-08:00

Today has been a full on day! I am sooo tired and my feet are very very swore also! but it was worth it all in the end!

Andrew and I had my family around for dinner tonight for my nana's 60th birthday which she is celebrating on Tuesday :) go NAN! :) my aunty vickie and uncle scott and cousin Ashton and my auntie Sheridan and her boyfriend Jeremy and cousin che and my dad and nan and Adrian and drew and i had a wonderful time over i have to personally a well cooked meal by me!

on the menu was beef and blackbean and chicken stirfry
the kiddies had chips and nuggets!

i was very scared that i had not made enough food but there was for sure enough to go around for all which i was very much happy to no,

i really do enjoy cooking, and you no I fully appricate all the years of having my nan cook for me, and clean and do so many things for me that i realised now how wonderful those things were and how important it is to be thankful for everything, and i truly am :)

here are some awesome pictures from the night:

and more more more

I am very happy and proud of my self of how tonite went i was very organised and very prepared and drew did wonderfully as well helping me out! i love cooking for people esspecially for my family, i love knowing that ive made someone happy, and i didnt care about anyone except my nan! cos her smile is the most important...

Happy birthday!

It's not too late...

2008-01-17T16:48:00.001-08:00

Hello,

Welcome to a little thing called my life! hehe..

I dont think I have ever had a blog that is open to the public to read, so hey a new step for me! I realised how important it is to have friends and family included in my life and seeing i love to write out everything i thought i may as well start sharing, not that i will go very deep, maybe because im afraid of what people will think, but at the moment i will just stick with the little things, maybe branch out bigger through time...

As you all no i recently got married, which was the most wonderful day in my whole life...I didnt think i could be so happy ever, but you no, i am! walking down the isle and looking up at andrew, i saw that this was meant to be i felt this was meant to be, and it felt so right, and i never felt so happy and so in love in all my life, i do have to say he truly is amazing...(sorry this is mush)

but i have to say he did look amazing, as the weeks come by so fast i have to keep looking at the pictures and my hand and his hand to remember that we got married! because it has all gone so fast, and It feels so weird to say that I am Mrs Hayley Brook Mah! sometimes i still write and say hayley long..hehe but hey you get that..

we got some wonderful pictures thanks to paul! :) and everyone also collected some fantastic pictures, and soon letters will be sent to all with a picture :)

so this is my new blog! and i hope to write in it everyday...thought id start with a little walk down memory lane of our wedding day..

peace out!